Mumbai Meri Jaan...

Attack on Mumbai, Hotel Taj Mahal, Oberoi Hotel, Nariman Point, Around 150 Killed, Around 300 injured, Lost few daring officers, terrorists are teenagers, Deccan Mujahiddin, Pakistan, etc.... these are few things which is happening in Mumbai and everyone know about this very well.

I received a sms, which quotes to mourn for the people who died in these attacks, I received another sms, which was provoking to fight against the terrorism, I have deleted those sms's or else I would have quote those.

I was in Mumbai during February 2008 and visited those places where these attacks are still going on.

When I saw the television I was shocked to know about the attacks. I have really spent most memorable moments in those areas, and those moments are golden moments of my life.The Gate Way Of India, Nariman Point, Corridors of Taj, Oberoi Hotel.

Taj, Oberoi, Nariman have lost their glory and I have lost that person who made those moments really wonderful. Taj or Nariman or Oberoi cannot get its glory back as attacks have made a massive destruction for them and I cannot get that person back who is in another person's life.

Taj, Nariman, Oberoi and Myelf can remember those memorable moments only in our minds and hearts.

Now those things are just in my memories and memories cherish forever.

What A Reason - Comments I Received.

The last article titled "What A Reason" took its birth from one of the incident which took place in a tea shop. That incident was very close to my life so I just wrote it. " This is the explanation I received two comments for this article by the two important people in my life.

Vinay - He is a very good friend of mine from past 18 years. He knows me very well. I would like to quote his comment.

Try enjoying the single status. Stop trying to fall in love with each and every girl you meet. Start introspecting as to why each girl you fall in love with dont try to commit themselves to you or to be part of your life. One more gyan, stop trying for girls, concentrate on your career. Ask your parents to find one for you and the rest will fall in place, you can start loving the one you marry and she will obviously be committed to you"

This was the comment I received from and I appreciate it alot because as I said he knows me very well.

Vishwas - He is also a very good friend of mine from past two years. We both are like north and south poles our thoughts are always parallel and parallel lines never meet.

This was the most funniest post you ever wrote, without ever intending it to be so! Lo hari do you really believe girls when they say, i think you are a fine guy and i'm unlucky to have you as my lover or whatever the fuck is that? In effect, they are saying, you don't deserve to be my lover or whatever it is. I think you hang on with a girl even after she has said no. If she accepts, ok fine. If she doesn't, ok fine. Why scratch your mind that much. You should really thank them for not accepting your love- they in fact did you a favour by doing so. Why do you want to FALL in love all the time. Why not rise in life once instead? There is life beyond love and all that. Stop all this butterfly and caterpillar stories and write something logical for a change

This was the comment posted my him to my article. I never thought that this article would really make this kind of impact. I would like to thank both who are very much concerned about me.

My motive has served by this article one has took very seriously and the other has said it was the most funniest article I have written.

Love is not what I have written there. Both have experienced it, but they have their on perspective on love. Ya true love is not a caterpillar or butterfly story its the story of worms, animals, human beings, all the living creatures, non living things, sun, moon, etc. Love has no end. It can be related to anything and everything.

Career is something which is dependent on ourselves but not love. Love is something like addiction everyone wants to enjoy it but few wear masks. I am happy I am not the One.

I know I will get a comment for this article or I think I wont get as I have mentioned it

What A Reason!!!

I know that once in a lifetime we will come across a mesmerising feeling called Love. Some of you have already experienced it and some yet to face it. And few are just enjoying it every time, same in my case I have experienced it several times.

I have heard people saying that we enjoy true love only once in our lifetime.
Oh... I think that love itself is divine and there is no such things like false love or true love. I really wonder when people say that it was my true love. Come On Guys!!! Are we playing true or false game.

I believe in one thing "Nothing is good or bad in this world but thinking makes it so."
Thank god!!!! I am lucky, every time I fall in love is the true love, but for me I am in love again and every time I was 100% sincere committed and loyal. I do not bother about true or false game.

I think you guys are wondering, why am I talking all these things? and how are they related to the topic?
Well!!! You will come to know about this as you go on reading this article.

I have experienced the world of love several times in my life and most of the times I was heartbroken :-(.

I proposed every girl whom I loved but most of the times got rejected and you know what was the reason???

"OH... SORRY HARI I CANNOT COMMIT MYSELF TO YOU, YOU ARE SUCH A NICE GUY, I AM NOT SO LUCKY TO MARRY YOU"

Ahhhhhh!!!!!!!! Can anyone just explain me what sort of a reason is this? I don't know I was blank all the time.

I am still not able to digest one thing, if I am a nice guy, then why was I rejected. Anyways I did not allow my mind to think about this too much. But sometimes i really thought that is there anything like true love or I might have not loved her truly!!! Obviously this question aroused in my mind when I was rejected, I know it is superstitious but its usual, we think all the possibilities when we fail, even though its silly.

I am very happy because if I would have succeeded then I could never experienced the love several times. So no hard feelings girls, Thank you for rejecting my love and making me to love more more and more.

Enjoy the wrong ones till you find the right one ;-)

JUST WHEN THE CATERPILLER THOUGHT THE WORLD WAS OVER IT BECAME A BUTTERFLY.

Give A Thought

I was coming by bus to Rangayana. I was thinking to write to write an article. I saw a 76 years old man who was travelling along with me. He was talking to himself very loudly. I felt very unusual about him. He was well educated and he was speaking English in British accent. I came to know that he was an actor and a freedom fighter. He was talking about movies and freedom struggle. No one was interested in his talks but my ears caught attention when he spoke about freedom. That was the moment I decided that I will write about Independent India in my article.

As we all know Independence Day is celebrated on August 15th. Are we really independent? ya may be, but for the namesake. If the question is somewhat like this, Are we free from slavery? Are we free from foreign rule. Then the answer will be yes, but even this is for the namesake. We are still dependent on other countries for many things we are not independent country we are trying to be independent country. There is a lot of difference between freedom and independence.

India is a democratic country, of the people, by the people and for the people. Still we are slaves under corrupt politicians and bureaucracy. Common man or middle class man is not at all bothered about his country, for him its just a living place. We talk about politics, religion, social upliftment and other service motto topics only when there is any get-together or parties.

Youth are busy finding their own destiny without any clue about India's destiny. Only few are really working towards India's future. You can call it as patriotism or service motto without any expectations but believing in revolution and renaissance.

I was shocked when I heard and saw few instances like in some private schools and colleges Independence day was celebrated on 14th of August and on 15th it was declared as holiday. We should not forget that Pakistan celebrates its Independence day on 14th of August. Are they celebrating Pakistan's Independence day by hoisting Indian flag? Few educational institutions who are responsible to educate pupils about our country doing this shameless job. I am really very proud to know that in government schools Independence day is celebrated on 15th of August. That is really fantastic job. Government schools may lack in providing the proper academic education but they are really doing a great job by filling proper information and education into the minds of budding futures of India. I think Indian history should be the major aspect in our education system. We really lack knowledge about it. Rather than working for the the future of India, at least we can gain knowledge about Indian history and respect it.

These days Independence day has become another national holiday, but few of my friends who work in BPO's and other outsourcing companies work on Independence day, and they have holiday for America's Independence day. Even though its seems funny. If you think consciously they are doing a very good job. They are working on a national holiday that too on Independence day and serving Indian economy. Where most of the people enjoy or waste time sitting in front of television watching patriotic movies and enjoying snacks. We celebrate Ganesha festival throughout India and other regional festivals and other regional socio-political festivals like Kannada Rajyotsava in Karnataka. I am not against them nor against their respect and concern towards it. This is where the regional criticism occurs. Rather than bifurcating regionally or religiously we can be unite and work towards the future of India.

We are least bothered to celebrate Indian Independence day, we are so busy on the Independence day or Republic day that we don't have time to stand for our national anthem and respect it for at least 52 seconds. "Unity in Diversity" is lost long ago. Now the saying should be. "No Unity Only Diversity" Alas this is India, and what will be the future of India?

There are many issues for the lack of development of India and I am not here to enhance or emphasize it, When root itself is corrupt then we cannot expect the tree to be strong.

An Embarrassing Story

My mother showed me a marriage invitation of a known far relatives' who is also a friend of mine and asked me to attend. His name is Mahendra but his face was erased from my memories. I was very much curious to know who that guy was.

Usually I don't attend any marriages (relatives unless they are very close to me), and finally I decided to attend the marriage to recollect my memories. I had a very vague idea about Mahendra's family. He is a close relative of my cousin who is very more close to me.

I went to marriage which was on 19th October 2008, and once I saw him, my curiosity was ended there. Actually, I had met him in one of my cousin's marriage 6 years ago.

I went to the stage to greet him. I was posing for a snap, then suddenly my eyes caught interest on a beautiful face. In fact, I know her, I had met her in the same marriage where I got to know Mahendra 6 years ago. I gave a smile as soon as our eyes caught for a fraction of a second but I think she didn't notice me at first instance.

I went to have my lunch but she was in my mind all the time. I went to flashback immediately. My mind sat in a time machine and switched the rewind button of my life.

I do not remember the exact date or month but I am sure it was in 2002. I was doing my first year degree.

I had been to my cousin's marriage, usually we celebrate our marriage ceremony for three days first day is varapooje, second day is dhaare and the third day is sathyanarayana pooja. I think I am going out of the story, fine I will come back to the main story.

I went to marriage on the first day (6 years ago). I saw a girl who was very cute. She made friendship with my sister and got introduced herself to me through my sister. Actually, I know that I am not that attractive by nature but I do not know what made her to get attracted to me, I think that's my attitude. I had long hairs, I was fond of wearing T-shirts, jeans and I had a pointed zip shoes which is called as hunters, my usual dress code was like that. She used to tell me that I am her Hrithik Roshan, please do not laugh on this as it was very much true for her.

We spoke for a long time that evening, gossiped for hours, had food together and she was not at all ready to leave me. I had a very fair idea that she was very much interested in me but did not speak about this. Next day, I went to the marriage and she proposed me, which was not much shocking as it was understood. I was thinking whether to accept it or not as I was single at that time [even now ;-) ] but took some time to think.

A guy came to me and spoke to me. He told me that he had a crush on her and was thinking of having a serious relationship with her but she was more interested in me. When I came to know this, I felt pity for him as he was a very nice guy so I decided not to accept her proposal for him and started ignoring her. She was very adamant and was not ready to give up at any cost. I do not know what made her to do so as we were knowing each other only for few hours. I think her problem was her age as she was in her teens which made her to behave like that. But I was very firm in my decision and I did not accept her proposal, I felt very bad as I broke her heart but I was helpless as I had to sacrifice her for him. She cried a lot but I was firm on my decision. When that guy came to know about this, he told me to accept her proposal as he wanted her to be happy and he was ready to give her up for me. That situation moved me a lot and made me more strong to stand firm on my decision. Everything ended up in an abrupt manner as she left to her place on the third day of the marriage. But she was very much disappointed and I think she was very much angry on me. As the time passed by my memory lost its data about this story, so I will come back to my main story.

By that time I finished my lunch, my mind again took a ride to the present. I just turned back and saw that she was sitting behind me for lunch.

I decided that I will talk to her, so I was waiting for her to finish her lunch. Usually in every marriage ceremonies, I just go there to have food and move on but since I was attracted to her and was very much keen to talk to her, I was thinking about staying back for some more time passing time talking to my mother till I get a right time to meet her and my mother was very much suspicious about as to why I am staying back for such long time but I made some excuses to stay back lying to her that I had to pick a friend and was waiting for his call.

Finally, she came after her lunch. I saw her and smiled at her with lots of enthusiasm but she ignored me. I was about to approach her but met the same guy who was in love with her from past 6 years and I was shocked to know that he still loves her. I got a call so I just took a leave from him and came out to attend it. At that time, she came out to wave her relatives who were leaving. Seeing her coming out, I was so excited that I held the call to say HI as she came walking towards me, we were like face to face, I called her by her name but to my shock she didn't respond, she just passed me without even looking at me, I tried once again calling her, in fact, I called her with loud voice but still no response. Everybody around me was staring at me, but she walked out as if she did not hear anything. I was very much embarrassed and totally dumbstruck by her behavior, Man that moment was horrible. I do not know what made her ignore me. I think I got what I did to her 6 years back, but I know my reason to ignore her was genuine.

I cannot digest when someone ignores me that too when its a girl and in public, God damn!!! it was a horrible situation. I went back inside, took leave from my parents and left the place. Outside when I was starting my bike, she was standing near the gate and was staring at me, but I just ignored her and went away without noticing her.

I do not know what made her to behave like that but one thing is for sure that this situation will haunt me for sometimes. I went to a tea stall to calm myself. Within no time my embarrassment was in the air in the form of smoke and my frustration was cooled with a chilled soft drink.

Solar Eclipse

One of my memorable day in my Life. It was a Solar Eclipse on that day. Solar Eclipse means Moon comes in between the Sun and the Earth. In India it was partial and in Mysore it was about 20%.
According to astrology, Solar Eclipse has its affect on all the living beings. During the occurrence people who believe it take all the precautionary measures. One should not eat, sleep or not even drink water during the time of eclipse. One should not roam but stay at home, etc. these are the few beliefs which I know.

Every time Solar Eclipse affects some particular birth stars and zodiac signs. This time it affected my birth sign i.e. Pushya and me being very lucky for my zodiac sign i.e. cancer. For this reason I was house arrested on that day and had to take few precautionary measures.

I was born in a middle class Brahmin family where my parents are orthodox and strong believers of God. Voice of my mother enchanting mantras, ringing bells and aroma of agarbattis are my usual alarms in the morning.
To avoid the affects I had to follow some rituals. My mother has a strong faith in all these things and I have an eternal faith in my mother's faith. I usually don't bother about these things but for my mother's sake and for her faith I followed all the rituals she told.

Let me come to the main story. I was up early in the morning did my routine, took a bath and I was in the pooja room enchanting mantras and worshipping God for about 45 minutes. I had my breakfast at 11 am. I had some work in the Internet so somehow I convinced my mother and went to browse. I was happily browsing when suddenly my mobile rang, I knew it was my worried mother. I answered it and within no time I was back home.

I had few fruits and spent time till 4 pm chatting with my family and watching television. My father told me to write a mantra which was in our holy calendar i.e. Panchaanga and to recite it 108 times during the occurrence of Solar Eclipse. This was very important to avoid the affects of eclipse.

Exactly at 4 pm television was switched off. Everyone were silent and were just reciting mantras. Even I was silent doing nothing. My dad reminded me to recite that mantra. Believe it or not I recited it 108 times. My parents and my sister everyone watched the Solar Eclipse but I was not allowed to watch or not even to step out of the house because of its affects. Alas I missed the historic event. In India Total Solar Eclipse will occur after 165 years it seems. I decided myself, one day I will visit the place where I can watch the Total Solar Eclipse and enjoy the historic event.

After the eclipse I went to take bath and again I was in pooja room enchanting mantras. I went to temple as my mother ordered me to do so. I did some rituals there and then I rode to my care of address i.e. Rangayana. The climate was very romantic and the city was covered with light mist. Rangayana was looking like western ghats as it lies beside the Kukkarahalli Lake.
I was alone there for some time enjoying the climate. Vinay came to Rangayana and we decided to watch a movie called Kuchelan starring SuperStar Rajanikanth. Movie was good. I came home late as it was a night show, had my dinner and slept.
This was the story of mine with Solar Eclipse.

I am very thankful to Solar Eclipse because I learned to have faith in my mother's faith and above all I spent real good time with my family after many days which was more valuable than watching a Solar Eclipse. I think faith makes man strong and to achieve what he believes.

Astrology says that Solar Eclipse has affected my birth star and zodiac sign.
I have a strong faith that it has not affected me but has effected me in someways. There is some change in me. Yet to find what it is? but surely will find it very soon.

Where Am I Heading?

I Always Wonder...
Am I A Stranger...
Think This World As A Blunder...

I really don't know why did I start this blog? I question myself if there is any purpose or motive behind this thought? but I don't get any answer for this.

I just use this to express my thoughts. I usually express my thoughts through Kannada Poems and Short Stories or through Urdu Shayaris, but now I have got another medium i.e. Blog, where my articles are assessed. To be honest, I started this blog with an uncertainty because of my vocabulary and grammar, they were acting like my hindrance. I motivated myself that creativity has no hindrance or barriers, then I decided to come up with this blog. I believe in learning from my own mistakes, so I know this blog will definitely help me. But where am I heading.....? through this blog, it still remains a mystery in my mind.

Now let me come to the topic and let me come to my own life. I have read hell like articles on life but this article is unique as it deals with me. I never read but felt in my 26 years of journey through life.

My friend Vinay was talking about the uncertainty of life, that was the moment when I decided that I will write about this as it was a thought which was bothering me.

I think the journey of my life started from the womb and I know it will end up in ashes so I wont bother about start and end, but the real mystery is the journey between them.

I don't know where this journey is leading me and I don't know why am I so proud to be born as a human.
I don't know where my life is leading me and I don't know why am I striving to find all the comforts.
I am just following a light of hope which is deliberately pushing me to the grave. Even though I know the end point and even though I know I will make it, then Why am I so passionate about the journey? Is it really worth being that? The first thing which was decided on the day I was born was my death. My countdown has started and I am just running my league.

I get disturbed when I see few people who have dedicated their life to God. I don't believe on the things which I see but these people have strong faith on an unseen God. Wow that is really fantastic. What made them to take such a decision? What are they searching for? Where are they heading? my mind becomes inquisitive.

What made Buddha to leave all his comforts and worldly pleasures and go in search of life. I was really stunned when I read about Bahubali, what made him to sacrifice everything and become Gomateshwara. What made him to stand naked. Was it a same question which is bothering me? If so, then I am sorry I don't have that guts to sacrifice everything and stand naked. But still the question haunts me everytime.

Emotions, feelings, bonds, relations, materials, everything, do they have their own roles to be played in my journey to ashes. I don't know but I need everything. I cant be Buddha or Gomateshwara because I am so much into this worldly things that I cannot escape from the clutches of life.

Life is full of uncertainty but even then I plan to lead my life in my own way, even though I don't know what will happen in the next moment. Is it really worth to plan? but I do it with the hope, faith and expectations.

Now this life has given a meaning to me to prove what I am? in my own ways. I need all the comforts. I enjoy relationships. I am possessive even though I know that I will not be bonded to it till the eternity. But still I live.

As I know the end point let me make my journey worth so that I can celebrate my last. I have made up my mind that I have born to serve some purpose and the purpose will be created through different circumstances of life. I am just playing my part.
I have convinced myself that not to be bothered about life and about its uncertainty. Life has its own role and I have my own.

Death is my Destination...
Life is just a Journey...
But even then sometimes I still wonder...... Where Am I Heading?